I took the race bias test because it was the thing I feel is most genuinely evil (using skin color as a ranking system). While doing this test I felt like I was under attack. It took until a little while after the test for me to realize that I shouldnt be defensive and closed off.
The first time I took the test, I was alone and nervous about feeling like a racist. I answered questions as carefully as I could to try and make up for my insecurity about respecting race. I have been scared all my life about hurting someone's feelings like that, but I realized that I shouldnt be insecure about something I can actively work on. If I had a bias, that is not something I should hide from myself.
The second time taking the same test I could breathe. I was not actively trying to "not be racist" and i allowed my biases to reveal themselves to me. I took what I got, and instead of making the decision to feel bad for myself, I will focus on working hard on it in my own life.
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